Well. Here we are. Married.
Beautiful day, beautiful honeymoon, and now we hunker down for the long haul.
It’s funny. You spend all these months planning and stressing and waiting. And it’s over before the blink of an eye. Suddenly you find yourself at this start of this great and crazy adventure. Suddenly your world is no longer just your own.
One of the hardest parts I have come to discover in this whole early departure into Marriageland is learning to meld two lives without losing your true sense of self in the process.
The funny thing about marriage is that it makes you examine things about yourself that you never really paid attention to before. You learn your less-than-desirable attributes through arguments and disagreements. You learn of your better traits through the times of laughter and love. You learn how to have a cheerleader and be one in return. You learn to dust off your patience. You learn to laugh with each other and begin another day brand new tomorrow.
You also begin to learn that this partnership also needs the influence of two separate minds. The more confident and at peace you are with yourself as an individual, the more you can bring to your marriage. This is where the diversity and spontaneity and adventure comes from. You each bring a whole set of personality and originality to the table.
And that’s where this girl has landed presently. Beginning the search to find myself again. While this past year has been very exciting and eventful, I feel like I have finally stopped spinning and spinning over and over in a circle. And I am now trying to overcome the dizziness and figure out my direction.
However, after months of planning and waiting all year for things to come to be, it’s now time to be active. To be present. To not merely exist in life. To find my purpose.To live as completely as I can and to stop making excuses. And then to turn around and share my blessings with those I like the best. And everywhere in between.